Even though I had managed to climb the corporate ladder to work at the top billion dollar entertainment and streaming media companies in the world, I never felt truly accomplished or "successful"; I was also pushing through one burnout cycle after another.
HOW I GOT HERE
What brought me to this path of serving my community was my own personal healing journey. One day I got sick and tired of feeling like shit and being angry. My healing journey uncovered a LOT of layers and I started connecting the dots - I was internalizing your standard 1st gen, daughter of immigrants trauma, perpetuated through systemic oppression and manifesting as imposter syndrome and an "on again/off again" relationship with overwhelm, anxiety, depression, and burnout.
While I made my climb up the corporate ladder, I didn't understand what boundaries were or that I needed a LOT of them at work to protect me and my energy.
I thought that if I worked HARDER I would be seen, appreciated, and eventually rewarded. At least that's what my papi told me I should do when I was starting out in my career.
My confidence was plummeting as I tried to shrug off race and gender micro-aggressions at work.
"Did they just say that? I must have misunderstood them..."
Top all that off with a gnarly case of perfectionism and FREEZING when confronted with conflict, my work life suuuuucked to say the least.
Since I had years of unprocessed trauma, I was operating from a place of SURVIVAL. I had NO IDEA how to regulate my nervous system. I was on edge. My body never felt like it got good rest. And some days my ADHD brain would just stop processing the tidal wave of data. But back then, no one cared about being neurodivergant, on the spectrum. #MeToo hadn't happened yet and no one gave a shit about me and the moment I spoke up I sealed my fate and wasn't asked back for the next season.
It took me about 10 YEARS of struggling, suppressing, and hustling to "make it" in my career. Even though I had managed to climb the corporate ladder and work at some of the major billion dollar entertainment and media companies in the world, I never felt truly accomplished and I was pushing through one burnout cycle after another.
Healing and continuing to heal from my trauma has completely changed my life.
For this reason I give a whole lot of fu@ks about WOC, especially Latinas, who were struggling with the same obstacles I had been working through for so many years on my own. Being the advice giver and friend that listened empathecally, I decided that I wanted to explore a career of empowering womxn.
After some planning and saving, and a lot of fear, I left my13 year corporate career in TV animation and film production to pursue this path 100%! In Feb. 2021 I joined millions of folx in the Great Resignation and fled for my life. I even traded my bungalow in East LA for a proper home in the San Bernardino mountains.
It’s a literal dream come true to now work FULL TIME as a guide and mentor for young womxn struggling to find the balance between ambition and alignment.
A thought about confidence and self-worth:
What we believe about our self-worth and how we value ourselves through our actions will determine what we strive for, our approach to achieve it, and if we can enjoy the journey along the way or not. Our self-worth will determines the respect we command and the love we accept.
Let us be the example for future generations and normalize healing and self-improvement. Gone are the days that we shame each other for expressing our feelings, being vulnerable, having compassion, or raising children consciously to care for others and the planet.
Let us create lives that are FULL of joy and aligned to our hearts desires so we can truly live our ancestors' wildest dreams.
My healing journey allowed me to learn and and train in various healing modalities and principles to help womxn reclaim their self-worth after losing themselves to toxic relationships. This can be a result of generational trauma, abusive work environments or co-workers, one-sided "friendships" or emotionally and physically abusive romantic relationships.
I use a holistic healing approach that focuses on accessing the subconscious mind, emotional processing through the physical body, and clearing the energetic field with modalities like The Emotion Code, Transpersonal Spiritual Coaching, and the Akashic Records. I'm currently working on getting my certification in Integrative Somatic Trauma Therapy.
Being trauma informed means that I navigate our relationship gently and meet you where YOU are in your journey. I understand that there is more to cahnging behavior than just "thinking positively" I work with top down and bottom up approaches to process the energy of any emotions or triggers that may rise up for you. Its worth mentioning that one of the great things about energy healing is that it's non-invasive and many times it doesn't require you to "re-live" your trauma the way some talk therapy is structured. There is absolutely a place for talking and processing but when we work on somatic release, you will never feel more stuck after a session with me. In addition, releasing subconscious programming will also open up your highest potential, heal limiting beliefs, boost your confidence, and improve ALL areas of your life!
HEALING IS NOT LINEAR
The Ouroboros [oor-uh-bohr-uh s] is one of the oldest known symbols, tracing back to Egyptian iconography, representing renewal and the cyclical cycle of life, death, and rebirth.
When left with nothing to eat, the serpent feeds on its own tail, becoming the "ouroboros.” It can sustain itself and become its own source of nourishment and life. Or it can too quickly consume itself and be the cause of its own destruction.
I chose the Ouroboros to reflect a symbolic "choice point.” Ultimately, we all have to make the choice to be our own source of power or to be consumed by our circumstances. We face this choice multiple times in our lifetime because our healing, growth, and evolution is cyclical, not linear.